As I embark on this journey of my second year of college I find myself questioning more and more. Like why do you put so much on your plate and then act so stressed out? I put myself in those situations, and why? Probably because I'm a little bit crazy, but maybe I am just trying in my own little way to get myself ready for the bigger challenges that lye ahead. I teeter totter about what I want to be when I get away from this place. My heart says to do what you love and become a teacher slash coach, but my mind and I kinda want to be a big political big whig like Francis Underwood on House of Cards. But does that mean throwing all my morality and values. Maybe, maybe not. But blackmail and coercion seem like the oil that runs the political game. I don't want to follow, I want to represent and lead. This stress is my darkness leading me to light and being a guiding light to what my future will hold, I just have to wait and see. 

Proximity to power deludes some into believing they wield it 

- Francis Underwood